Inspiration.... Where have you gone?

It has been awhile since I have posted anything on the blog. This is due to the fact that this blog springs from inspiration, and if treatment has done anything to me recently, it has left me feeling uninspired. Over the past month I feel like I have been merely in "survival" mode, struggling hard to keep up with the world around me. I would say that typically I am an upbeat and easy-going person, but lately I feel tired and worn down. Ironically at the same time as being fatigued I am often completely wired...like bouncing off the ceiling...wired and sleep at night is elusive. I had about three weeks of what seemed like non-stop nausea, however thankfully this seems to be passing! One of the side-effects of treatment is that it pushes your white blood cells extremely low, making you susceptible to other illnesses and infection. I ended up with a whopping infection in my mouth that required emergency dental care and antibiotics.  Anyways....enough whining from me......

On a much more uplifting note.....I have been riding my bike a little (on the trainer). I can spend up to 25 minutes at a time, but typically it is closer to 10.....but still this is something. I am hoping that soon I will begin to be able to spend longer on the bike. I need to get to the point where I am capable of riding 15 miles in a day again pretty soon in order to be prepared for the Fall Ride to Myrtle Beach. I have received a bunch of inquiries from others who want to join us...which is awesome!

Along this line I had 300 silicone bracelets made that are red and yellow and say "Stop Hepatitis C !" I am hoping that through donations I can generate some funds so that the bike ride can really raise awareness in the South Carolina Lowcountry. Send me an email with your address if you would like information about getting one (or more) of the bracelets. Please take this opportunity to learn more about Hepatitis C and to help to educate others.

In closing this post I would like to thank all my friends and family for your love and support during what has felt like one of the darkest times of my life. Even now I feel so blessed to have a deep faith in God and a belief that even the dark times in our lives contain great meaning and opportunities for spiritual growth. I am grateful that I have a source of inspiration which provides me a place to turn to sort out these trying times.


"As to your question concerning the meaning of physical suffering and its relation to mental and spiritual healing. Physical pain is a necessary accompaniment of all human existence, and as such is unavoidable. As long as there will be life on earth, there will be also suffering, in various forms and degrees. But suffering, although an inescapable reality, can nevertheless be utilized as a means for the attainment of happiness. This is the interpretation given to it by all the prophets and saints who, in the midst of severe tests and trials, felt happy and joyous and experienced what is best and holiest in life. Suffering is both a reminder and a guide. It stimulates us to better adapt ourselves to our environmental conditions, and thus leads the way to self- improvement. In every suffering one can find a meaning and a wisdom. But it is not always easy to find the secret of that wisdom. It is sometimes only when all our suffering has passed that we become aware of its usefulness. What man considers to be evil turns often to be a cause of infinite blessings."

-Shoghi Effendi